A Struggling Soul

When I woke up yesterday morning I didn’t see beauty,

I cried just because of the rain.

The day was a struggle but I survived it again,

But I wanted to give in to the pain.

I just know that there is something wrong with me,

Other people seem to find happiness,

Again today I woke up distorted,

I didn’t even want to get dressed.

Then something happened to wake my soul,

I was looking at my life from a far.

God showed up in the form of me,

Smiling as she took me by the arm.

“Fearing pain is your only problem”,

She spoke with certainty about acceptance and love.

I questioned her while looking at my life there,

Then she showed me that Heaven is not “above”.

There I was with God looking at the cosmos,

In awe of the simplicity of the design,

She took my hand reassuringly and said,

“Your teacher’s been you this whole time.”

I awoke this morning with questions,

Wondering if it was all a dream.

I heard a voice inside my head confirm,

“Nothing is as real as it would seem.”

The rain was falling as I dressed myself,

I looked out the window and found a smile.

The beauty came with my new perspective,

and I thought, “Love was here all the while.”