For years I tried to be more positive, lighten up and blend in with people I knew who seemed to “have it together”. From my side of the fence, most people seemed happier than I was and didn’t seem to be bothered by the things that got to me. Sure, they were concerned about money and certain problems within their relationships or jobs, but that seemed to be where it ended. Most people that I knew weren’t too concerned with figuring out the meaning of life, or what happens to people when they die, or if Heaven existed. But I was.
For most of my life, I tried to fit in. I certainly could relate to my peers, but I found it difficult to be related to. When I would open up and talk about my ponderings, I seemed to talk over people’s heads…and I would get the “What are you talking about??” look. So for years, I kept to myself on many things.
One of the biggest problems that I had was recovering from my past. Yes, recovering. My past, to most people, was unusually traumatic, and the trauma would repeat itself in odd ways. Some people thought I was cursed, but I just thought I was defective. I guess having a lot of emotional, circumstantial and mental trauma constitutes figuring out the meaning of life, but my main focus was to figure out how to be happy in spite of the trauma.
Clearly my father dying when I was 13 brought me to look into the spiritual aspects of life, but the spiritual didn’t solve my “life” problems. I went to a shrink for that…but that didn’t work either. I realized that there were many things missing, and decided to create my own resolution by looking at what works spiritually and psychologically and combining it all.
Do many people suffer from repeated issues? As a hypnotherapist I can say “yes”. Do many people struggle with spirituality and conflicting or confusing (not to mention unfulfilling) ideas about God? As a spiritual channel I can say “yes”.
What I have discovered is that what lies within us grows outside of us. What I have seen is that God is what we think she is, and adapts accordingly. What I know is that now, this moment, is a wonderful opportunity to create something new in life. And I have seen the issues my clients have, and friends too…as a people we are confused. But I can say honestly that it is possible to live in now and connect with the deepest, most peaceful part of yourself, which allows the past to fall away. The trick for most people is to become more self loving. And sometimes that means looking at what you are insistent about not loving as well.
Do you want to know your future? Create it. Decide it. Embrace it.
Do you want to see “God”? Look in the mirror. Honor yourself. Embrace yourself. Forgive yourself. If you were God, you would see that you are eternal and that all is perfect. You are perfect. And when you forgive yourself, you realize that there was never anything to really forgive at all…you just thought there was!
Namaste’
Jennifer
P.S. Check out “Bridget’s Blog” and see what the “unrealized” part of yourself is telling you. www.etherealclearing.com/Blog
